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Saturday, August 27, 2005


What rating is your journal?

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well, at least my journal matches my life. (I took a quiz a while ago that said my life was rated R) I guess it fits, if my life is gonna be rated R, and my journal is me, then my journal should be rated R.

Current mood: bored out of my mind


I am 20% Idiot.
Friggin Genius
I am not annoying at all. In fact most people come to me for advice. Of course they annoy the hell out of me. But what can I do? I am smarter than most people.
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Friday, August 26, 2005

7:37PM - Before I Forget--Slipknot


Stapled shut, inside and ouside would and I'm
Sealed in tight, but some irradical
Construed through pick, closing in and I'm
Catostrophic, not again
Expand quite the pain, and douse in gasoline
I'm wicked like a stain, yeah I'm the one who's insane
It gets me up, I know your sorted little insurrections
I've got no time to lose, and I'm just caught up in all the cattle

Frey the stings
Through the sheathes
Hold your breath
And listen!

I am a worm before I am a man
I was a creature before I could stand
I will remember before I forget

I'm ripped across the ditch, and settled in the dirt and I'm
Wiggled like a stitch, yet I'm the one who's hurt
Pay attention to your twisted little indiscrestions
I've got no right to way, I'm just caught up all the battles

Locked in flesh
Pushed in place
Hold your breath
And listen!

I am a worm before I am a man
I was a creature before I could stand
I will remember before I forget

I am a worm before I am a man
I was a creature before I could stand
I will remember before I forget

My end
It justifies my needs
All I have to do is delay
I'm given time to evade
The end of the road is my end
It justifies my needs
All I have to do is delay
I'm haven't time to evade

I am a worm before I am a man
I was a creature before I could stand
I will remember before I forget

I am a worm before I am a man
I was a creature before I could stand
I will remember before I forget

I am a worm before I am a man
I was a creature before I could stand
I will remember before I forget

Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah
Yeah, yeah, yeah, OH!


I feel like my life is slipping away. I dont really care anymore. Again. I feel bad. All up and down and up and down. Everything is in the proverbial toilet. I dunno. I need some help. My head is like throbbing. I just wanna get away from my life for a bit. I feel like I am falling and now, I dont know whats gonna happen. My friends are being weird. Andrew my "best friend" is refusing to talk to me for some reason. I rode my bike to his house to see him and all he could say to me was "I've been in a bad mood" like that makes ignoring me all better! Will is calling me the Anti-Christ. And saying that I am annoying and everything. I think this may be related to the fact that Denise and I are friends and we hang out. Brett got switched out and whenever I see him its like 'whoops, I gotta go...' I havent gotten a hug from him since the day I gave him the note. OMG. My freakin pants. My weight changes so much throughout the day. My pants fit me fine this morning. And now? they can be pulled completely off without unbuttoning them or undoing the zipper while wearing my belt!! Im sure Lester would love that, he could pants me easy. He was talking about it during the senior crap in the auditorium this morning. He even reached over and grabbed my belt loop! God damn that would have sucked. I just want to feel better. Can anyone help me feel better? Please?

Current mood: under the weather

4:53PM - StOoPiD SuRvEy ThInGiE!!

[Relationship Status] lookin!
[Height] 5'5"
[Shoe size] 8
[Parents still together] HAHAH! they been divorced for 15 years.
[Siblings] 4 sisters.
[Pets] 5 birds, 1 dog, 1 turtle, and 1 fish.
[In school/graduate] in High school now, Senior Year Baby!!

[Color] red or pink and black
[Number] 11 and 13
[Animals] ANYTHING!! I love animals, all animals!
[Drinks] alcoholic--Smirnoff Twisted IV, non-alcoholic-- sweet tea
[Soda] vanilla or lime--pepsi, not coke!
[Book] uh... I read anything and everything! I dont have a favorite!

[Color your hair?] sometimes, I am thinking of going redder.
[Twirl your hair?] yes. ALL the time.
[Have Piercings?] 4 of them!
[Have a boyfriend/girlfriend/both?] no, like I said above, I am lookin!
[Cheat on tests/homework?] occasionally homework, but never a test.
[Wish lived somewhere else?] EVERY DAY! I hate living here with my dad.
[Want more piercings?] Yessss!! I wanna get my ears double pierced and I am thinking of getting a tongue ring!
[Like cleaning?] NO WAY! Cleaning is the devil's work!
[Write in cursive or print?] both
[Own a web cam?] nope.
[Know how to drive?] yes, but I dont have my licence yet :(
[Own a cell phone?] yes, actually I own 2, but neither of them work, cell one--no service, cell two--baby sister stuck it in her mouth and it got wet so now it doesn't work.
[Ever get off the damn computer] eh, sometimes! lol

[Been in a fist fight?] yes *cough*Jasmine*cough* lol
[Kicked someone in the nuts?] yes
[Stolen anything?] yes
[Held a gun?] yes
[Drank?] yes
[Cried over a girl?] definately
[Cried over a boy?] ALOT.
[Lied to someone?] yes
[Been in love?] yes, and I got really hurt.
[Fallen for your best friend?] yes-but unfortunately it didn't work out.
[Made out with JUST a friend?] yes
[Been rejected?] yes, just recently too.
[Been in lust?] of course, I mean honestly who hasn't?
[Used someone?] I see now that that's what I was doing, and I am extremely sorry and oh so regretful.
[Been used?] Yes. It isn't cool.

[Current clothing] Jeans, my "Rock" belt, a white tank top, and a button up T-shirt open over the top.
[Current mood] I am having my ups and downs.
[Current taste] nothing.
[What you currently smell like] me?
[Current hair] braided back loosely.
[Current thing I ought to be doing] homework. But I have all weekend.
[Current cds in stereo] Mp3 Cd. Mudvayne now...
[Current job] unemployed and unhappy about it.
[Who do you like] hmm...there's alot I like in different areas of life, way too many to name in a quiz...
[Last book you read] I am currently reading "Smack" by Melvin Burgess
[Last movie you saw] I watched "Sweet Home Alabama" last night.
[Last thing you ate] reheated pizza for lunch.
[Last person you talked to on the phone] Denise this morning to find out where she was (she drives me to school in the morning)

DO YOU....
[Do drugs?] just pot, but I haven't smoked recently.
[Have a dream that keeps coming back] occasionally
[Play an instrument?] I DID play the cello, lol!
[Believe there is life on other planets?] no.
[Remember your first love?] how could I ever forget?
[Still love him/her?] as a friend I guess...
[Read the newspaper?] sometimes
[Have any gay or lesbian friends?] gay AND lesbian friends.
[Believe in miracles?] yes
[Believe it's possible to remain faithful forever?] yes and no.
[Believe in God?] no
[Do well in school?] yes.
[Hate yourself?] sometimes, and recently its been more often than not... :(
[Have an obsession?] I obsess over one thing or another then its gone, I dont keep my obsessions forever.
[Have a secret crush?] No, I told Brett that I like him.
[Collect anything?] SPOONS!! HELL YEAH!! and postcards.
[Have a best friend?] no
[Close friends?] kinda yeah...
[Like your handwriting?] sometimes.
[Care about looks?] yes. I want to look good, but unfortunately I wasn't born with the best genes...
[Do you believe in "the one?"] yes.
[Have you ever played a game that required removal of clothing?] Yes.
[Are you a tease?] I try not to be, but maybe I am...I really don't know...
[Shy to make the first move?] yes very much so. But I have before.
[Druggy] no way!
[Daydreamer] yes. definately, but they aren't all that vivid.
[Freak] well, in some senses of the word yes, and in others no, but I wont tell you which! ;)
[Dork] yes, but I am not afraid to admit it!
[Bitch/Asshole] I can be and I know it too.
[Brat] sometimes.
[Shy] yes. very.
[Talkative] only with people I know well...

Current mood: havin' my ups and downs...

Thursday, August 25, 2005

7:28PM - Fall Into Sleep--Mudvayne

Dreams of earthquakes
Dreams of hurricanes
Dreams of pouring rain
Dreams of tidal waves...to wash us all away
Dreams of guns blazed
Dreams of fire rage
Dreams of swollen graves
Dreams of hollow pain
All gone

No more fallen
No more enemy
No more casuality
No more dream

Fall into sleep
Fall into me
I have a dream
But nobody cares
Nobody wants to listen

Fall into sleep
Fall into me
Hang on to a dream that nobody wants
Nobody cares anymore

Dreams of mourning grief
Dreams of disbelief
Dreams of tragedy
Dreams of our disease...to take us all away
Dreams of fidelity
Dreams of inner peace
Dreams of loyalty
Dreams of unity
All gone
All gone

Fall into sleep
Fall into me
I have a dream
But nobody cares
Nobody wants to listen

Fall into sleep
Fall into me
Hang on to a dream that nobody wants
Nobody cares anymore

The angels are injured
Fall with broken burning wings
Are we dead inside
Are we blind
We can't keep moving forward
Backwards with closed eyes
We're losing sight
All lost inside

No more fallen
No more enemy

Fall into sleep
Fall into me
I have a dream
But nobody cares
Nobody wants to listen

Fall into sleep
Fall into me
Hang on to a dream that nobody wants
Nobody cares
Nobody wants
Nobody cares anymore

All gone
All gone
All gone
All gone

Current mood: somewhat bouncy


You know? I dont think I once wrote anywhere in my journal about my crush on Brett. Brett is a sweetheart and he is hott too. He DID sit next to me in Calc. but he got switched out today :( I feel brave too! I got the guts to write him a note saying that I like him, and I gave it to him. I feel really stupid for it, but I did it! He told me he wasnt ready to have another G/F cuz his last one really fucked him up bad. He is ok now but that's only because she isnt at school right now, but when she comes back it will really be bad for him. I understand, but I was also hoping I could use 1st period as an excuse to get to know him better, maybe be a real friend instead of an acquaintance. But that isnt ever gonna work now :( It really sucks. I just wish he were back in my class. Now my class smells bad :( It always smelled like white board markers(I sit in the front row), but Brett's good smell overpowered it. Now, it doesnt smell so good anymore...and I am all alone in first period, he was my only friend... :(

Current mood: ok, calm I guess...

Wednesday, August 24, 2005


I beg, I plead, will someone please just have me committed? I will thank you more than anything if you just help me in that one little way.

Monday, August 15, 2005



Sweet, adorable Jamie can't keep his feelings to himself, even when he tries. And while some might look at his long-lasting unrequited crush on Jude and say he can't take a hint, others would say what he probably says about himself: he's just an eternal optimist. Who hates fake, gimmicky soulless corporate rock frauds. For the record.
31% of the people who tooks this quiz got the same evaluation.

Current mood: annoyed


You are 84% pure!

My test tracked 1 variable How you compared to other people your age and gender:

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You scored higher than 56% on purity
Link: The 100 Point Sexual Purity Test written by ocicat on Ok Cupid

Current mood: annoyed

Friday, August 12, 2005


LiveJournal Username
Why you did it
Your lair
Your hideous secret weapon
Your favourite colour
Beautiful and exotic but deadly eastern lieutenantkisa_cait
Henchperson who constantly plays with knifesnani_fox
Your perverted scientific geniuscountvonpenguin
You cordon bleu chefsmallfrichick32
Lieutenant with serious moral qualmsprincepwnage
Number of countries subverted8
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Current mood: lazy

Tuesday, August 9, 2005


Do NOT cheat! This is like, 99.9% true!

1. Write a name of the opposite sex on a piece of paper.

2. Which colour is your favourite out of red, black, blue, green and

3. Your first initial

4. Your month of birth

5. Which colour do you like most? Black or white?

6. Name of a person of the same gender as you.

7. Do you like California or Florida more?

8. Do you like the lake or the ocean more?

9. Write down a realistic wish.













1. You are completely in love with this person

2. If you choose:
Red - You are alert and your life is full of love.
Black - You are conservative and agressive.
Green - Your soul is relaxed and you are laid back.
Blue - You are spontaneous and love kisses and affection from the one you love.
Yellow - You are a very happy person and give good advice to those who are down.

3. If your initial is:
A-K - You have a lot of love and friendship in your life.
L-R - You try to enjoy life to the maximum and your love life is soon to blossom.
S-Z - You like to help others and your future love life looks very good.

4. If you were born in:
January-March - The year will go very well for you and you will discover that you
fall in love with someone totally expected.
April-June - You will have a strong love relationship that will not last long
but with memories that will last forever.
July-September - You will have a great year and experience a major life changing
experience for the good.
October-December - Your love life will not be too great, but eventually, you will find
your soulmate.

5. If you chose:
Black - Your life will take on a different direction, it will seem hard for you at
the time but it will be the best thing for you, and you will be glad for the change.
White - You will have a friend who completely confides in you and would do
anything for you, but you may not realize it.

6. This person is your best friend.

7. If you chose:
California - You like adventure.
Florida - You are laid back.

8. If you chose:
Lake - You are loyal to your friends and your love. And you are very reserved.
Ocean - You are spontaneous and like to please people.

9. This wish will only come true if you RE-POST THIS BULLETIN on your
livejournal within the next hour and it will come true before your next birthday...

my wish will come true before my next b-day? Dang! That will be too late since I just had one not too long ago :( O well...hopefully soon!

Current mood: whatever...

Sunday, July 31, 2005


so, party..

It was a bust. I had everything PERFECT. This could very well have been the best party ever but, (there's always a big but in the way isn't there?) only one person showed up. And she didn't show up until 4:30 (she worked till 4)

Here's a shoutout to KT, thank you KT for coming, I really appreciated that. Without you my party would have been the worst one ever.

At least we had fun. A two-person party is always better than a party of one.

Current mood: discontent

Friday, July 29, 2005


I love comments! Aren't they spiffy?

I have a MySpace... I've had it for a while, but now I am so bored that I am inviting anyone who bothers to look at my LJ to check it out! It has a spiffy layout too. I love my layouts! woo!


check it out...pretty please.....?

Current mood: awake


oh my god...


a website for "beautiful people only"


disregard that last entry unless you wish to read boring blah...stoopid LJ wouldn't show the pix :(

Current mood: grumpy

8:43PM - --A Good Way to Waste 2 Hours--

Here are some...

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Current mood: pessimistic


Where did everybody go? The last entry on my friends page was written 2 days ago! Dang, I wish my friends would go ahead and say something already!

I am naturally a lazy person, but being home alone makes me even lazier. Someone call me up and put an end to my madness!

That song (Beautiful Soul--Jesse McCartney) was on MTV and is now stuck in my head : ( grr!

Current mood: unhappy


Count the number of 'F's in the following text...


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Current mood: devious--HeHeHe...



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I found a nifty lil way to customize my journal really easily! I have changed the layout so many times today and yesterday, wow, I think I may have finally found the one I want tho. Check it out and tell me what you think!

Current mood: creative-yay!

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